stress....

i took a day off today.....tapi, aku sangat tak enjoy my day off....and why is dat? because i feel so stressed out....i keep worrying abt my job at d office...i cud feel my heartbeat getting faster...huhuuu....kenapa aku mcm ni....why am i so stressed out?

Mcamana aku xstress….ke aku ni mmg xpandai handle stress? Maybe aku ada anxiety problem? Huhuuuuu…org ckp, amek lah cuti….rest….haiii…msalahnya, everytime aku nk cuti, bala keje musti datang…dah banyak kali…and, im d type who don’t like to trouble my colleagues….im d type who don’t like other ppl to b in trouble coz I didn’t do my job well…..i hate it when im not at d office, my boss wud ask things that is under my responsibility...and i hate it when my colleagues terpaksa go through my pc or through files to get the information because they dont want to trouble my at home...that shows how unefficient my organization is....

Sometimes, I think I worry for almost every single thing abt my job….but, aren’t we suppose to take our job seriously? I work for d public….every penny dat I earn is frm the ppl….kan tu dah jadi amanah? Nnt akhirat, kalau ditanya apa aku buat dgn amanah aku, whut am I suppose to answer?

Although I did my best to make sure I finish all my job before going for my cuti rehat, ada je benda yang buat aku susahkan orang balik….ntah la…I guess I worry too much….but my worries are not baseless….with my working environment dat is prone to have adhocs almost every week, its quite hard to have a few days off….

tak suka stress....tak suka risau pasal bnda2 keje ni....haiiiiii.....

my little incident of RESPECT

dis event happened a few weeks agO....it was a sunday.... a fasting day.....as usuaL...dis year, my sunday iftar is with my dearest ex-housemate who got married last year.....how nice of her to allow me to cook in her kitchen & enjoy having iftar at a proper table&chair...heheee....anyways...dis is whut happened on d last sunday of ramadhan dis year....

inside d car.....
me : kta nk masak apa ini hari? i nk msak cendawan celup tepung!
ex-housemate : ok gak.... i nk mkan kailan ikan masin..
me : waa.....sodap2......main dish aper ek? takpela...jom pi alamanda....and i want a new tube of la cremeria....yg last week tak sodap....
ex-housemate : alamanda ok...... eh, nnt kta pi kedai ****** nak? bole mntak derang ajar i mekap?
me : okie...

so, dat was it...by the way, the previous sunday, we spent the entire 3 hours after iftar with trial and error make up...hohohhh...it was sooo much fuN.....ladies nite are always fuN!!!

alamanda
me : you, sorry la i pakai selekeh2...pakai seliper jepun asadi kaler oren ni lagi..
ex-housemate : no problemo..i pon sama je....

so, when we arrived at alamanda....we made a few stop at some shops before going to kedai ******.... and when we arrived...
ex-housemate : err...cik, boleh tunjuk cara mekap tak? ktaorg nk tgk....saya nk beli beberapa produk
salesgirl 1: kejap yer. orang yang mekap tu tgh bz
ex-housemate : ok..ktaorg tgk2 dulu yer
me : waaa...cool nyer eyeshadow ni....cantik2...

3 minutes later
me : you, ini maskara menarik..
ex-housemate : yup...
me : mana la org yg nk mekap ni...

7 minutes later
me : you, mana ni....dah mcam agak lama kita tunggu. plus, mana ada org tengah dimekapkan..
ex-housemate : tu lah....mana ni...
so, kitaorg gi balik kt salesgirl yg suruh kitaorg tunggu tadi...dier dok bersembang dgn sorang lagi, across the caunter...and they were using a secret language...sambil tgk2 kt ktaorg...owhh....is dat some kind of kutukan? and...dat salesgirl, xcakap apa2 pun kt ktaorg....nk suruh tunggu ke, apa2 ke....huhhhh...
me : you, jom la...macam bangang je org ni
ex-housemate : tu la...jom la keluar...

whut a *****!!!! hampeh toL.....i was soo mad with those ppl at that kedai *******!!! layan mcam laa ktaorg ni ntah hapa2...we were nice ok...we talked nicely asking for a makeup makeover....huhuuu.....sian my ex-housemate, she was really keen on it...

ex-housemate : sarah, jom masuk kedai ****!! kedai ni pun sama mcm kedai tadi..
me : hmmm....okie....harap2 x sama la perangai

kedai ****
ex-housemate : cik....u boleh tunjukkan eyeshadow mana yang sesuai dgn i tak
salesgirl 2 : yang ni ok..
ex-housemate : you boleh tunjuk tak mcamana nk pakai?
salesgirl 2 : pakai je lah...sapu je lah...(with a tone dat is sooo rude)

MY GOD....apa punya bahasa minah ni??? whut kind of attitude is dis???? u shud be treating ur customer with respect!!!!!!!!!! and, my exhousemate was not fooling around! it was soo obvious she wants to buy dis product!!!

ex-housemate : (terperanjat with such an attitude) maksud saya, pakai banyak2 warna...
salesgirl 2 : ye la...sapu je la...lepas tu blend (nada yg rude lagi)

at that moment, i was juz a few inch from pulling my dearest friend out of dat shop...but, my ex-housemate was quite patient abt it....and, finally, dat rude salesgirl told her to sit and agreed to do it...

so, she took out the eyeshadow and started to apply it onto my ex-housemate eyelid....me, innocently asked.
me : tak payah letak concealer dulu ke on her eyelid?
salesgirl 2 : tadi mintak saya tunjuk eyeshadow kan? (nada rude jugak)

huhuuu......nasib baikkk laa bulan puasa...and nasib baik aku sayang kt ex-housemate aku, aku biar je la dier belajar mekap dgn kau...if not, dah lama aku sound...

well, in d end, my ex-housemate did bought the eyeshadow, with some other make up stuff. but, my oh my, i really dont like dat lady...

seriously, no one deserve to be treated like dat... and dis is not MAC or Cristian Dior or Estee Lauder im talking abt.... i've been to MAC b4 dis, with my sister. she was clueless abt choosing the rite concealer for her dark circle....the salesperson at MAC was sooo helpful abt it...and even applied it onto my sis and taught her the rite way to apply concealer on eyelids ... and my sis bought it..happily...
plus, my opismate told me a story when she went to a Benefit counter & the salesgirl was so friendly and she ended up buying makeup products worth hundreds...

if those salesgirl were rude to us, simply coz we were not dressed up...i think, they got some issueS...because..

1. sapa yg nk pakai lawa2 pi alamanda? come on!! alamanda jerrr..not like we were in The Gardens or Pavillion
2. only those who dont have the opportunity to go to other shopping complexes wud dressed up to Alamanda (like them!!!)
3. NOBODY deserve a 3rd class treatment!!!! nobody!! OKU ke, miskin ke...NOBODY!
by the way, to those yg selalu dressed up to alamanda, im sorry, dis entry is not criticizing you....

truth is...my ex-housemate was hurt abt it....yes, we did kutuk those two salesgirl...and, my ex-housemate tros xder selera nk makan kailan ikan masin (which left me so frustrated)...hehee...

after our shopping for the iftar ingredients,
me : you, i nk pi The Body Shop sat...nak beli sumthing
ex-housemate : okie
me : yang ni, cuber kta tgk, how they gonna treat us

The Body Shop...
i stepped in..looking for the shiso whitening range...ahaa...there it was...hmmm......shiso or vitamin C.....shiso or vitamin C......
me : cik?
salesgirl 3 : yer? boleh saya bantu? (with a smile)
me : saya tak tau nk pilih shiso or vitamin c... i need to reduce my dark circle...in the same time, i need to reduce the fine lines...
salesgirl 3 : hmmm....shiso ni utk dark circle, tapi yang vitamin C utk fine lines...
me : ala...saya nk hilangkan semua
salesgirl 3 : owh...kalau macam tu, cik kena settle yang salah satu dulu..
me : hmmm...yang mana saya nk pilih ni..
salesgirl 3 : apakata cik ambil yang shiso ni
me : (nampak sangat dark circle aku ni terrible) ok...terima kasih..
salesgirl 3 : terima kasih cik (Smile)

huhuuu...d reason y i wrote down the body shop in dis entry is because....tbs treated me well...seriously, not juz at alamanda, at equine park as well. they were informative & helpful. although it was so obvious i looked selekeh...and the reason why i didnt write down the name of the other 2 shops was because.....hmmm...xpayah la nk tunjuk kelemahan orang...maybe there were a few other salesgirl dat are nice at those shops...who knows? but seriously, im BARRING myself from those shops....plus, TBS mmg best!

whut i wanna say is, there shudnt be any more 3rd class mentality in dis country...u shud treat people the way u want to be treated...and, MOST IMPORTANTLY, u r in the customer related field. u work at the counter...OBVIOUSLY ppl will be coming to u, asking dis and dat....how r u going to serve ur customer with attitude like dat? maybe, they only treat customers who came to their shop in stylish clothing nicely....but, dat is also a third class mentality...

so, i told dis incident to my opismate
me : bla bla blaaa awak...hampeh toL....berlagak...patot la keje kt kaunter je!
my opismate : teruknyer...ala....produk kedai ******* tu kan murah2 jer.....
me : hahahahahhh....mmg pun...haii......ni lah mentaliti orang melayu kot?

so, to all...never judge ppl with the way they dress....fine, if u wanna judge their handbag, clothes or whutsoever, u can do it...its ur prerogative....BUT, remember, respect the others the way u wanna be respected....if u judge their handbag, their clothes, remember, others can do the same to U as weLL..

respect peopLe...
nobody deserve disrespect....NOBODY..

d evolution of my social skills

i've always been friendly....talkactive...and nice....(hheehee.....i dont mean to boast, but...i think, i am nice)...

errr....was, actually...was talkactive....and friendly... when i was small, my family always move around...so, if im not friendly, how did i cope all the new surroundings, rite? i attended 3 primary schools and 2 secondary schooLs...believe me, being friendly is damn easy...but mixing around, is not...

so, when i did my last "friendliness" in a secondary school years and years agO...it didnt work out quite well..maybe because of the tradition of dat school...or they simply were quite conservative when it come to choosing their friend or "geng" ( u see, i was kinda different back then.....in other words, aku freehair)

but, dat was in secondary school.....when i entered my matriculation centre...i was happy.....i had friends....true friends....they r d ones who still stick to me till dis day and can be considered as true friends....heheee....however, i must admit dat, there were timeS back in d matriculation centre where i had to lunch alone.....dine alone...not because i didnt have friends...but, it was different....how different? well, i didnt think having ur meals at ur friend's room was ok...as much as i hate eating alone, i dont actually like interrupting one's privacy.....however, i must admit, my closest friends were the ones whom i always had my lunch & dinner with.....

in main campus, it was another story.....i had friend will me all d way.....however, i muz admit dat when i first started majoring, i had no friends ( d ones i was always with chose accounts, instead of economics)....mind u, for someone like me, being alone is actually quite depressing.....however, i managed to find other friends....and, blended well  too... i guess? coz, i had no trouble finding friends for  studygroups.....for assignment team..and blabla...i even had friends for lunch after classes....friends for breakfast before classes and friends for dinner.....and, they truly are my true friends..... 

well...fast forward....d working world....i first started everything as " totallybeing alone" when i joined the graduate training programme, under dis one company's csr (corporate social responsibility)...well....i muz say...im proud of myself, coz i managed to find friends within a few  hours....and, i muz admit, they were among the nicest people in d world...(its not easy to find ppl dat u can simply "click" within a few hours)

when i joined the so called ptd...d first thing dat i was exposed to was the 10-day course sumwhere in kluang...in the 1st few days, i was ok, coz we moved in groups...but a few days later, when there were no more moving in groups, reality slapped me in the face...i dont actually have friends??? huhuu...dont get me wrong,..they r nice...and at dat time, i know there were nice ppl, its juz dat i cudnt find them? plus, i juz dont see myself making friends everytime i sit for my breakfast, lunch or dinner...seriously...although i consider myself as friendly, but, do i have to do "hai...i'm sarah" everytime i want to eat? everytime i sat next to a stranger? so, i chose the best natural way to survive...juz shut ur mouth & smile to ppL....well, actually, i feel less stressed...because, everytime u introduce urself to a stranger, ur kinda forced to talk abt almost anything....and, i dont actually like it....because, its either u have to impress ppl with ur knowledge or give educational feedback...no, dat is not me....i  wanna eat, not force my brain to work!!!

when i first joined the working world....err, few weeks after the course in kluang...i was ok....i had friends at the office (but, not at home)...although i muz admit, there were many2 times i had to brunch all alone at the office...not bcoz of i dont have friends, but i prefer dat way.....i wud go to the cafe, bought food & eat my food around 11 am while watching martha stewart....huhuuu.....was i unhappy at dat time? well, not really though (eventhough i lose a lot of weight)

so, whut did i do when 1pm came?  simple, juz watch tv....hmmm....i dont know why, but i see myself as not trying to socialize too much with my officemate....maybe sbb majoriti lelaki? or maybe sbb majoriti dah kawen? but, seriously, the ladies there were nice....maybe, i was less interested to socialize there...and, i keep telling myself dat i'll be there for only 6 months coz after i'd be off for my DPA course in INTAN.. dat made it easier for me not to socialize too much....weeee......

6 months later....the dpa thingy....d one dat i was soo worried.....worried coz i was afraid i might not be able to get through it...with me being soo claustophobic and achrophobiac....i was constantly reminded with all d bad imaginations of almost all the activities...however, i muz admit dat i managed to face it all....weeee....and, not to forget dat i forged a new friendship with a few people.....they made DPA bearable for me throughout the 6 months..im not ashamed to confess dat, i only managed to be closed to a few people only.....weeee.....do i have problem mixing with people? NO....did they hated me? NO (im pretty sure on dat)...its juz dat, i had trust issues....hehehe....i tend to shut my mouth when im surrounded with ppl dat i dont know (and dont like)...

i dont know why, its damn hard for me to trust people, especially when i started working....looking back, most of my friends dat still stick to me till dis days are my buddies  from iiu......yes, i do have close friends at the office, and, i do trust them...however,they are actually less than 5 person...

i juz realised dat im not dat close to my ptd friends....in ptd, we were taught to always stay connected to our batch....means dat, if my batch has 400++ ptds, i shud at least, know their faces....so dat, my work in d future wud be easy.....fair enuff.....i totally agree on dat.....being ptd, means dat u need to have a wide connection.....well, as for me, dat kind of connection i never ever intended to use.....im not saying dat d connection is bad, its juz dat, i dont feel like being connected to them.. i never went out to hang out with my ptd friends (other than my officemate)...i havent attend one of the weddings of my ptd friends, althoough i received their invitation cards.. (but i attended my iiu buddies weddings...hehee...)

so, actually, whut is wrong me? is dis juz a trust issue? whut does a trust issue got to do with networking? with cathing up with ur friends? huhuuu.....i guess, dis is juz me, i have trust issues....fair enuff....ke aku dh takder social skills?

lesson learned....

it was another normal day at work....the only thing dat was not so normal on dat day was i had to go to sibu aftework.....weeee....so....here's d story....

as usual, i woke up kinda late-r than d usual time.....so i said to myself, xper la...bkan selalu lmbt...and as i was driving slowly & peacefully to work, i thought...hmmmm... maybe i shud stop at petronas....isi minyak & withdraw some money...i had less than rm50 in my wallet and being outstation needs cash.....bla blaa....oppss...missed the junction to the petronas....oh, whut d heck....amek duit kt klia je la ptg karang....weeeeeee....

at office, i juz remembered dat i forgot to bring a small towel ( mmg la hotel sediakan towel, juz dat i felt uneasy...whut if xderr?? ) and also, i think i might need extra pants...so..i made a quick mental note....balik umah during lunch hour.....and when it was 1pm....malasss nyerr...xperla... i guess i juz leave the office b4 5 and get back to the office by 5... (coz i was supposed to go to the klia using the office transport)

4pm ...it was raining heavily ...
my direct boss : "sarah, u jaga xyz kan.... esok ikut saya gi xyz....ada kursus"
me : sorry bos, sy nk pi sibu malam ni.....
my direct boss : sibu? owhh...lupa....so, prepare all the reports that have been presented to us by xyz and please e-mail it to me... ada 4 report sumer...make sure u e-mail it b4 u leave...
me : okie....

damn....mana nk cari lagi 3 report? tick tock tick tock.....time is running out!

4.15pm ....still raining heavily..
me : shooootttt!!! sapa pilot nk pi klia karang? naik keta aper? kena kol pilot!
so i dialled the number, and it turned out that the pilot who's suppose to take me& my officemate to the klia had another assignment.....huhuuu.......cemana nk pi klia ni??

4,30......raining cats & dogs...
as i was packing all the files & stuff i need to bring to sibu......2 of my bosses came and lay-park at my workstation...and were talking abt the current affairs...damn..aku nk curi2 balik ni!!

5 pm.....damn....dah le hujan....nk balik lagi...janji dgn pilot 5.30...huhuuu...kena balik jugak amek xtra pants, towel & seliper (sebab, most probably i had to take a boat to the site....takkan nk pakai kasut? and, based on my experience taking a boat sumwhere in pahang a few years ago, i seriously think it is better to wear slipper)

5.05 ...
me : awak, saya blik dlu, nnt jmper kt lobi tengah...dh janji dengan pilot..ni plat number keta
officemate : awak nk blik hujan2 ni? yelah...jumpa karang

5.20
officemate : (sms) awak dh sampai?
me : (sms) dah sampai....dh sampai umah...baru nk gerak pi ofis balik....
officemate : (sms) okie

oh no....dh lambat....kna buat putrajaya drift ni......makk...hujan lebat...tak nampak jalan.....is dat a car or juz my imagination?? owh...how i regretted not coming back masa lunch hour tadi.....huhuuu....dah lmbat...cepatttt!!!!

5.44.....finally....all safe & sound....inside the car to klia....weeeee...sejukkk.....sbb, aku dh redah hujan...my socks are wet...my shoes are wet.......WAIITTAAAMINUTE.....NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

me : awak!! sy luper tukar kasut!!!!!! saya pakai heels!!!!!!
officemate : huh? luper tukar? awak pakai heels? takpe, heels awak x tinggi..bleh je kot pakai lawat site..rilek awak...

pakai heels? lawat site? nak naik bot? dengan heels???? damn! dis is not good.....tak pernah2 aku lawat projek dgn heels....huhhu....okie, dont panic......think sarah....think.... fine, i'll juz buy a new shoes at klia.....tapiiiii...i juz bought a new pair of shoes for site visits 2 weeks ago....takkan nk bli kasut lagi....membazirrr.....tpi...takkan nk pakai heels? gile ke? nnt org state gelak!!! fine...juz buy the bloody new shoe!

sembonia .... 6.15 pm
me : awak, kasut ni cool
officemate : yup...cool....
me : yang ni pun....yg mana satu ni....fine, i'll take dis one..miss, ada size 6 tak? tak nak yg display
sales assistant : cik, sorry, size 6 tinggal yg display je...saiz 7 ada la..
me : size 6 ke size 7? size 6 ke size 7?
officemate : awak, ape masalahnye kalao bli yg display..takkan awak nk bli size 7? beso tu..
me : a'ah...nnt kalo saya naik bot, saya lompat atas pengkalan, tpi kasut tertinggal dalam bot, cemana?? miss, i'll take size 6
sales assistant : okie...dat wud be RMxx
me : u accept credit card?
sales assistant : yes....thank you........ (2 minutes later) .... miss, sorry, ur card is declined
me : huhhhh? declined???? (aku JARANG shopping!) kad yg ni bole?
sales : sorry miss...card ni pun declined
me : (terkejut beruk...damn....cemana nk tdor kt hotel if both cards kena decline...WEIRD...aku jarang shopping!!!!!!!!!!! ) kejap yer...sy withdraw duit (withdraw sekali la duit utk outstation)

at the atm machine.....i inserted my card...punch my pin....and wait for my money to come out from the machine....and suddenly...TRANSACTION UNAUTHORIZED.....

i almost cried at dat moment.....im a few minute away from boarding a flight to sibu...and i am not allowed to make any transaction with my credit cards...and i cant withdraw money ...and i have no shoes for my site visit!!! how on earth cud this thing happen 2 me????!!!!!
okie....dont panic....dont panic...think......move to the next atm.....okie...deep breath.....punch again the pin...and....walllaahhh....i have money!!!

so, i quickly went back to the shop...paid the damn shoes and quickly find gate no.9.....which happened to be very far & require a long walk....it kinda destressing, actually........

7.20 pm
bank : hello..assalamualaikum...saya abu...apa boleh saya bantu?
me : assalamualaikum....encik...saya sarah nak tanya sikit sebab tadi saya nk buat transaction dgn dua-dua kad kredit saya tpi decline la
bank : boleh saya dapatkan nombor kad kredit cik?
me : sure.... xxxxxxx-xxxx-xxxx-xxx
bank : cik sarah tadi nk buat transaction tu di mana?
me : dekat klia...kedai sembonia..saya tak boleh beli barang tadi...kad kena decline (okie...masa nk aku mmg dh nk nangis)
bank : la..ye ker.....takpe cik...mengikut rekod....last transaction cik adalah di hush puppies...dan takde langsung rekod pembelian di sembonia.....kad cik takde masalah..maybe line dkt kedai tu ada problem...cik boleh shopping lagi ni....ada balance lagi RMXXXXXXXXX
me : (cis...hampeh) ooo...xder masalah yer...mekasih...assaalamualaikum..

huhuu....fuhhh...thank GOD takde msalah....seriously, whut wud i do if card tu ada problem? im not the kind of person who wud bring lots of cash to places dat im nt familiar with....it is true dat at least we shud have some cash with us...but, with the duration of days im staying there, which is 3 days, i dont think its proper to have lots of cash....i juz dont feel safe...

lesson learned.......
1. if outstation.....pack barang betol2
2. withdraw duit awal2
3. pakai kasut utk site visit dri awal2 lagi..bukan masa nk bertolak!

mmg pengajaran lah utk aku....im not boasting or anything, but, i am truly systematic all dis while...i have my list of things to bring for outstation...dis is not the first time aku outstation..all this while, i never forget anything for my outstation....huhuu...guess, dis is juz a new experience for me.....weeeee....
and.....thank god tak naik bot....tapi kna naik feri....3 kali baru aku sampai kat site....and worst of all....aku mabuk kereta...sebab jalan nk ke sana tak berapa nk ok...huuhuuu...sedih....

luckily i brought dat extra pants, sbb, seluar aku sangat kotor...and y is dat so? sbb kereta tu kotor, sbb jalan tu kotor....so....berbaloi ke sebenarnya aku beli kasut tu? berbaloi kot? sebab, actually, kalo bkan sbb aku blik umah to take the extra pants, i wudnt b late to arrive at the office...so i wudnt be in such a chaotic situation dat evening....that lead me to forget to change my shoes...

syukur sangat to Allah...sbb smua dh settle...

don't.....

i wanna start dis blog entry by thanking Allah for all His blessings.....thank u Allah for calling me, to be ur guest in ur holy land...thank u so much...terima kasih Ya Allah....

alamakk...td dlm keta, idea mencurah2 nk blog, now, im speechless! huhuuu...type je la eh...

there many kind of ppl in dis world...everyone is uniqe...no one is the same...no one in dis world is the same......so, whut do u do when people tell u their problems and ask for ur word of advice?

never ever think that we are the same.....the way u evaluate other people's problem is not the same with what they r feeling rite now...

sometimes, the others might nt be as strong as us....they might not react the same way we expect them to react when they r in a mess....stop saying "imagine im in his or her shoe"...because, u can only imagine, u can never ever feel what they r feeling... u can only give them words of advice, words of comfort, believe me, those words help a lot..but, most probably, it only lasts for a day...

so, when people still in a mess, after many many years...after tonnes of words of comfort u've given them, stop saying words dat might hurt them..for example "kau ni pesal tak bleh nk berubah" ..because, they r not u, and u r not them....they r the ones who are suffering....u r the one who is watching.... maybe, the problem dat they r facing might be similar to the problem dat u faced years ago...or maybe, u had faced a bigger and much worse problems than the one he is facing, but, dont expect them to be able to recover, to be able to face that problems the way u did...no, it wont happen...people are unique....we might think they r strong....and, we might wonder how on earth did dis person end up being like dis, simply because of a small glitch in his life......the answer is, we dont know...and, how people react towards their problems are not the same with us.....

stop saying words dat hurt them......believe me, they dont choose to be like dat...if only, life is juz like microsoft windows....just right click the icon and choose one of the available options........im sure, if life is like dat, none wud be stucked in a mess....

running away does not solve anything....but, sometimes, running away is the only thing to do...dats the only best option available...sometimes, we gave our best level to face a problem...we put in almost 200% of effort to fight....but sumtimes, dat 200%, that best level is not enuff, and we became extremely exhausted...exhausted because no matter how hard we fight, it is still like dat.....and the longer we stay, it makes everything seems to be more unbearable..so, leave....run away from it, is the best option..

so, dont ever judge people.....never ever say " i was in dis mess before too, but im okay now....so, y cant u do the same like i did?".....dont say that, because, u are u, and u will never ever be like someone else...

thank u so much to izan.... she inspired me to write dis entry.......sarah doakan yg terbaik utk izan..